Greetings fellow followers. I just noticed that I have 5 days left till I depart from this wonderful city of sun, snow, shine, sleet, rain, hail, cloud in one day to a city where you see nothing but smog, sun, cloud, and more smog. Sounds like I dug myself a hole here.
Well it is that time where I give you a little update but I don't think it's necessary. I'm supposed to have packed something by now but all I've packed is a list of what I need to pack. I have to say though, my list is pretty hefty and well, lets just hope it lasts me 2 months.
As time goes on by, have you every wondered why on earth you wanted to go?? I'm having that strange little feeling today. Maybe its because a part of me doesn't want to go and the other part does. I seriously wonder why on earth I said 'yes' to this trip in the first place. Actually now that I think about it, I didn't know the details or the stuff required to go till about 3 weeks ago. Very interesting... Funny thing is, I didn't realize how much money I needed to bring until yesterday. :D Lets see. Sure I knew that the accommodations were adequate and that i'd have to pay a little fee. That's no biggy nor is it a problem, but the one thing I didn't expect was everything. (Ok some of it may sound pretty stupid but I didn't know back then). Breakin' it down, food would be an issue; laundry another issue; travel to china and accommodations was another HUGE issue; working on some sort of music workshop over there another issue; oh forgot to mention, its in Mandarin. HAHAHA can we all say SCREWED!?!?!
Oh well, come to think of it, I need to look at things on a bigger scale. These are just little small bumps along the road that God can provide. I'm his child and he'll take care of me no matter what. If I have to die, so be it. Not my will, but His will be done. Anyways, straying away from the dark times, thinking on the big picture, I have so much more to worry about that's beyond my grasp. Things like what happens if I get quarantined cause I'm Albertan or if I get mugged or captured. How many people are going to be in China for this workshop thingy or camp or (still to this day I still don't know what I'm doing in China) something, or perhaps what am I going to do to help these people in need. Am I ready for this journey in life? Do I have what it takes to be able to help those suffering and the teens in the camp?
I was speaking to Pastor Dan Wiens the other day about my little incident and this trip and he got me thinking. Definitely THE toughest test that I've ever had to face through a closed environment. The one question that I had the most trouble answering was "Do you have what it takes...?" Funny thing was I didn't know how to answer it. Sure I knew that there was more than just the question but there was something bothering me that I couldn't say. Key thing was, was that No, you don't have what it takes. Sure we may think we have all of it and we're the best at things but seriously, we don't have what it takes to do stuff, but with Christ In Me, we have what it takes.
So this got me thinking about this trip. OK, so now I understand and actually able to grasp and comprehend a lot more now that I had a very engaging conversation with Pastor Dan but it seems i'm lacking something. I believe I lack the spirit to do something fullfilling. Yea, sure I have the spirit but I don't think i'm open to the idea of having it in me to do anything. I seriously am going to have the hardest 2 months of my entire life and I though going through school was bas enough lol.
Well I'll keep you ALL updated on the next chapter. June 1 will be the beginning of my day-to-day life in HK/China.
PS: I just realized that this is public. So if I offend anyone, I'm very sorry. :D
PSS: I'll be posting at around 10/11 at night HK local time. For those who don't get it, that would be around 8am here in Calgary. I'm going to see if that works out otherwise, I'll post it at 8am HK local which would equal 6pm Calgary time. I may alternate but for the most part it'll be 10pm.
HK 8am means 10pm Calgary the previous day.
eg. HK June 3 8am = CGY June 2 6pm
eg. HK June 2 10pm = CGY June 2 8am
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